My Love for Speed

Ever since I was young, I always wanted to be first, especially in a race. However, due to my physique, I could not run fast at all. I would always be at the last to reach the finishing line. In order to run faster, I began to choose my friends in terms of how fast they are able to run. Come to think of it, I realised how narrow minded I am in the past. But thats not the point. The thing is that, the first thing I ever wanted to aim for, was to acquire speed.

Just this morning, I felt really good/bloody tired, during my PE session. Played touch rug with a few group of considerably closer friends among the other NJCians. Having to do all those sharp, fast turns! Breaking through the lines of defence really brought me alot of satisfaction and even allowed me to reminiscence on how I spent my time with the close friends I had during VS. Its as if I have finally achieved the excellence for speed.

Looking into the bigger picture, I was wondering why my pursuit for speed/excellence in my studies actually dipped like a whole lot. I no longer put my studies above all other aspects of life. Everything about acads, seemed to be really slow and dreadful. And then, the worst part, was to see the disappointed faces of those who held high hopes for me. All I could say was that I tried.I didn't even dare say that I tried my best. Feeling guilty and yet, I continued to procrastinate. Its true that the world does not revolve around acads, like values, morals and all, but its a fact of life that acads are important. The way I see it now, its as if I have given up hope on it.Even if I wanted to pick my pace up, the inertia is just too huge. Looking at the others increasing their pace, doing their final sprint, it feels the same all over again. All alone, Iam the slowest of them all.

I want to find back my source of energy. I want to continue my pursuit for excellence.

For now, I shall remind myself that "Pain is temporary while pride is forever".

4 days are up

Ok, it was not that procrastinationishhh, did some in depth study on the Arts and culture for GP, did some coursework, it pretty decent for me. Though I still did procrastinate and finished reading Liar Game... TAT

Got 4 free days

I'm gonna make it worth its time.

It was worth it

Ater the tiring week, i finally got back my sleep with a one shot 15 hrs sleep. Ahhahahahha

I really hate you!

I swear i will fcuking hit you in the face so that you can't snigger at me just because you think my idea is ridiculous! If you think that its stupid, why did't you say so much earlier and improve on it when we still had the time, you BIGFATLAZYBUM!!!! Don't you even care? ASSHOLE seriously!

Darkroom

It feels cold and lonely.
Yet the constant humming of the air conditioner brings with it this meditative atmosphere.



PEACEFUL.



And how I wish I have my blanket with me so that I cuddle under its warmth.

Omtian, i neglected this blog again...

Finally, it has been a long time Once again to come back and post onto this blog. Its not like i did not pass by this blog, its just that life is super uber hectic to have some time to just sit down and ponder about life ( though i get to do this in art) to blog it all down. Many things have happened during the absence of my supposed blogposts. It would be crazy for me to type all the experience down, so i shall just talk about something more recent. :)

I have decided to drop to H1 chem after such a long dilema and i really do hope that this would be the right decision for me to take. It does seem like i am taking this route to escape from the tough and harsh reality, and i feel such a coward to not being able to bring myself to stand up and perservere in h2 chem. However, why do i need chem in the future, is it really all that important, and believe that i would want to go towards the art side in the future, i would never ever want to do those damn paper works.... And i do know, if i were to take h2 chem, my parents would not allow me to "waste my talent" and proceed on with an arts degree. Kinda narrowing down the options to get what i want, Strategic isnt it? Once again, it does sound like an excuse, haiz.

I don't want to have a boring life. I want a life worth living. A simple yet worthy life to live. I want to see the world, i want to keep all my memories, i want to treasure all of them.

Aristal is coming btw, i really cant wait for it :) and i am going for freeeeeee ahahhahahhahahha. I just love the way they dance, if there is anything i hate, it would be my lack of skills to photograph all of them down. Most of my shots last year was super blur, super ugly, there is only a selected few that i am proud of. Hopefully this year, i would be able to do a much better job in covering the event. If you can get a chance, please do go for this, its effing awesome can.

For now, i'll just say good bye to this blog, god knows when i will update it. Hehe, seeya

First week of school

Busy is the word, and the hmwk are rushing in... But nonetheless, all of them are going down! MUHAHAHAUAUHAHAHHAHAAHAHHAA, HELL YEAAaaaa!!!!

First day of school

Hello peeps

Went to school as per normal. However, a new crew was introduced to the morning ride to the almighty National Junior College. Yes, You've guessed it, it was none other than Josiah koh, my neighbour. =) Didn't say much to him when we were in my Dad's car though. I did try to break the ice by asking whether he was doing the walk-in tomorrow, then he said yes, and then I said OK, and then I stone, and then I went back to the normal routine of sleeping in my Dad's car. So boring... =.=

Then before Morning Assembly leh, I went to the Darkroom as usual... Checking for the batteries while waiting for both the ladies to return their DSLRs. Oh ya, I forgot to sign in for them, I better do so for tomorrow. Then, I rushed to the assembly area, thanks to Ji Yeon who came pretty late... But luckily, it was the first day of school, so Assembly started slightly later than usual. Saw the tutor in charge of my class. I really wanted to tell him that I do not want to be the civics rep anymore, but I just could not make myself do it. Maybe some other day. He seemed like a nice guy, but he sure has something against the Arts student cause when I told him that I was in Art, he was like :" OH NOOOOO....". Yea, then I told him the main bulk of Art students are from my class and guess what, his "NOOOOOOOooooooo" was longer....

That aside, after Assembly was Math tutorial. And my worst nightmare was there! My DM is my Math tutor, like WTF. GG!!!! He is so going to pwn my ass especially when I posted an unglam photo of him on flickr AND my senior gave him the link... Nice roight? Yea Veh Niceee....

Then there was Art lesson, had a little revision on SOVA and a little pop quiz. AND dang I lost to Tse Sin by 2 marks! I got 17/24. Hahaha, if not I could have gotten a prize from Ms Chan. On the bright side, I got second in class so YAY!!! Rarely do I do reasonably well in NJC, I am like the norm...

Then BLA BLA BLA, the rest of the day is boring. Went to Math lecture, half sleeping. Then GP tutorial, got a new note book from a very nice GP teacher. Then, went for Chem tutorial, got the mushroom teacher and she is a very good teacher i tell you, her words like flow and retain in my head man! She rocks!

Then school ended, and here I am blogging when I am suppose to do my Math Hmwk. T.T I just can't do math for nuts. Sian TTM...

Signing off =.=

OH my god!

I am officially a Senior High 2 tomorrow! Not like I am excited or anything... But, the time has come for me to sink into the depths of hell...

BYE and have fun. =)

Do's and Don'ts for 2011

Hey guys!

Here is the plan. The plan for Quinn to stay focus and less procrastinating. =)Muahhahaahhahahaha! If you find me doing what I am not suppose to do. Smack me in the head!

1) No games during the weekdays. Except Fridays since I consider it the weekend.
2) Do not ever start watching a brand new anime until the A's are over. I know I won't stop once I start. LOL. Abstinence is best.
3) Youtube only at night. Thats because its usually a waste of time youtubing.
4) Never even have the thought of skipping lectures or tutorials. Its for your own good.
5) ....hmmmmm...... I'll add more if I need to. Until then this would do. =)

So if any of you have anymore tips on how to make Quinn stay sharp, feel free to type the your answers in the chatbox to the right of this blog.

Signing off. =)

Thoughts processing...

It seems my blog posts are starting to waver again. It could only mean one thing, things are going to get rougher, tougher and messier. As school begins soon enough, I doubt there would be any significant spare time for me to spend on my dear friends from VSPB. I would surely be spending my time off with chemistry and math consolidation at the current rate I am study while procrastinating. Addiction is the word. Its strange isn't it, for me to be lack of self-discipline, as I was from a CCA that emphasizes the need to self- discipline. However, after being four years in NPCC, what I realised that they have taught me was not self- discipline. Instead, its fear. Fearing of mistakes, fearing of NCOs or CIs reprimanding you. All this fear, made me learn to choose the option that gives me less trouble to deal with. In the end, I end up not telling the entire truth. Maybe, just maybe, its because of fear, that my heart starts to waver. To be honest, I am no longer as confident as the young Quinn back then which is quite disheartening. No moral courage, no values. Just what have I become? I myself do not know. I am just running from reality as I speak.

You guys might be wondering why I am "emoing" suddenly. Well, due to my procrastination, I went to watch this particular anime that began trigger my chain of thoughts. Death Note.In this anime, it shows a guy who is trapped within his ideals of changing the world into a better place. With the notebook, he instilled fear into the world by rerasing the existence anyone who did crimes. I won't go about telling you the ending. Go watch it yourself if you have the time. Its a great story with a sad ending.



After watching, I realised that I should begin to do some soul searching and how to better my self. For now, I will make this small simple vow. I, Quinn, will put my greatest efforts in everything I do. I hope to see a Quinn that is determined as he chases the goals present in his life while crushing anything that deters him. I will succeed for sure.

BLEH

BLEH BLEH!

BLEH BLEH BLEHING BLEHHHHHYYYY..... T.T

BLEH BLEH

signing off