My Love for Speed

Ever since I was young, I always wanted to be first, especially in a race. However, due to my physique, I could not run fast at all. I would always be at the last to reach the finishing line. In order to run faster, I began to choose my friends in terms of how fast they are able to run. Come to think of it, I realised how narrow minded I am in the past. But thats not the point. The thing is that, the first thing I ever wanted to aim for, was to acquire speed.

Just this morning, I felt really good/bloody tired, during my PE session. Played touch rug with a few group of considerably closer friends among the other NJCians. Having to do all those sharp, fast turns! Breaking through the lines of defence really brought me alot of satisfaction and even allowed me to reminiscence on how I spent my time with the close friends I had during VS. Its as if I have finally achieved the excellence for speed.

Looking into the bigger picture, I was wondering why my pursuit for speed/excellence in my studies actually dipped like a whole lot. I no longer put my studies above all other aspects of life. Everything about acads, seemed to be really slow and dreadful. And then, the worst part, was to see the disappointed faces of those who held high hopes for me. All I could say was that I tried.I didn't even dare say that I tried my best. Feeling guilty and yet, I continued to procrastinate. Its true that the world does not revolve around acads, like values, morals and all, but its a fact of life that acads are important. The way I see it now, its as if I have given up hope on it.Even if I wanted to pick my pace up, the inertia is just too huge. Looking at the others increasing their pace, doing their final sprint, it feels the same all over again. All alone, Iam the slowest of them all.

I want to find back my source of energy. I want to continue my pursuit for excellence.

For now, I shall remind myself that "Pain is temporary while pride is forever".