Credits for the image goes to azmi :)

In the hospital

Had a recent asthma attack in tekong recently, finally understood how it feels to be gasping for air. I was sick for a period of time before it led to this incident which eventually landed me in the hospital now. I am stabalising now with the nebuliser doing its work releasing white fumes that brings me comfort. My stay in the hospital was prolonged due to some irregularities in my ecg and probably an increase in T4 thyroid which explains my skinny build, weak stamina and high metabolism rate which they detected on the first day when i admitted in hospital. But all is well now, my body has more or less regained to its original state with normal hormone expression and heart beat. Haha, like to make myself sound like a pro bio student muahahhaaha. This is roughly what happened in a nutshell but what i really wanted to mention in this post is that this entire event has provided me an eye opener.

I was suppose to go for breakfast meetup with my VS bros on Sunday morning, really i was very excited to see all of them, reminiscence the good old talk cock times hahaha. However, my wheezing on saturday did not stop hence the admittance into changi genral hospital. Of course ah, must inform them if not they say pangseh ahaha. So i continued to text dzafir, azmi and damien. Reply from azmi is pretty normal, since he everytime cool like cucumber, i just reassured him that i am ok and thats about it, likeaboss \m/. But dzafir that joker lol! Was typing in full caps like WTF happened and even wanted to come down to CGH at 11.40pm to visit me Hahahahaaha as if i am not gonna be seeing the next sunrise. Merepek only, but I was really really grateful for his concerns, shows how much a brother he is :)

The next day came (sunday) parents visited me first and to my surprise the entire VS gang came down to CGH to visit me! I was really moved. Had my talk cock session and lunch with them still :) Took an awesome group photo with my bros with azmi's 550d and credits to him :) another person i would also like to thank is mr khor, after seeing the phto being uploaded on facebook, he texted me and asked for my condition and stuff like that haha then somehow it became a small convo about how chio the nurses are and how i should restrained myself lolol! At the end of it, i realised that this is my home ( not the hospital ah), where i truly belong all thanks to the people i have met and contributed to my well being in one way or another. Singapore is a country worth defending afterall with my rifle, my buddies annd Meeeeeeee.

My Love for Speed

Ever since I was young, I always wanted to be first, especially in a race. However, due to my physique, I could not run fast at all. I would always be at the last to reach the finishing line. In order to run faster, I began to choose my friends in terms of how fast they are able to run. Come to think of it, I realised how narrow minded I am in the past. But thats not the point. The thing is that, the first thing I ever wanted to aim for, was to acquire speed.

Just this morning, I felt really good/bloody tired, during my PE session. Played touch rug with a few group of considerably closer friends among the other NJCians. Having to do all those sharp, fast turns! Breaking through the lines of defence really brought me alot of satisfaction and even allowed me to reminiscence on how I spent my time with the close friends I had during VS. Its as if I have finally achieved the excellence for speed.

Looking into the bigger picture, I was wondering why my pursuit for speed/excellence in my studies actually dipped like a whole lot. I no longer put my studies above all other aspects of life. Everything about acads, seemed to be really slow and dreadful. And then, the worst part, was to see the disappointed faces of those who held high hopes for me. All I could say was that I tried.I didn't even dare say that I tried my best. Feeling guilty and yet, I continued to procrastinate. Its true that the world does not revolve around acads, like values, morals and all, but its a fact of life that acads are important. The way I see it now, its as if I have given up hope on it.Even if I wanted to pick my pace up, the inertia is just too huge. Looking at the others increasing their pace, doing their final sprint, it feels the same all over again. All alone, Iam the slowest of them all.

I want to find back my source of energy. I want to continue my pursuit for excellence.

For now, I shall remind myself that "Pain is temporary while pride is forever".

4 days are up

Ok, it was not that procrastinationishhh, did some in depth study on the Arts and culture for GP, did some coursework, it pretty decent for me. Though I still did procrastinate and finished reading Liar Game... TAT

Got 4 free days

I'm gonna make it worth its time.

It was worth it

Ater the tiring week, i finally got back my sleep with a one shot 15 hrs sleep. Ahhahahahha

I really hate you!

I swear i will fcuking hit you in the face so that you can't snigger at me just because you think my idea is ridiculous! If you think that its stupid, why did't you say so much earlier and improve on it when we still had the time, you BIGFATLAZYBUM!!!! Don't you even care? ASSHOLE seriously!